17/06/2020 – Katjas Bauchladen

Ive had an old dream about a monster as a kid. I was standing on a street which was empty.

No cars, no humans ..just Nothing but the street and few trees.

I looked left and right until i noticed a black thing that had yellow eyes and it was big and covered in black smoke.

It started to come close very fast and i knew that i couldnt get out of there until the scene was over.

So it came and had very sharp claws but its a dream and you cant feel pain right? I knew that as a kid because ive had no experience with pain within dreams.

This one teached me i guess! xD

That thing was going to kill me but i couldnt die so it hurt me very bad and terred my skin of while striking me with the claws all the time..

It hurt so bad that i was actually screaming loud and tried to fight back but then i noticed something.

It wasnt trying to kill me but to torture me until i realise something.

While he had its claws in my back and held me to the sky i noticed that pain wasnt the problem, it was our expecation!

Pain never occurs in any of the other worlds when we should get damaged, it comes when we expect it to come! My problem was that i didnt knew it was a dream and thought it will hurt when it hits me.

I saw that pain only was possible when youve had a body and a mind which follows your expecting will to cause pain. I saw the reality what was causing us to believe nonsense and taking it over to other worlds which didnt belonged there.

After i realised that, i suddenly started to laugh and stood again in front of that being.

Me as a kid infront of this three meter thing which didnt flinched anymore.

I walked away from it and it dissapeared slowly behind me.

What kind of teaching method was that ?? The way of pain ??? XD