06/12/2020 – Katjas Bauchladen

It was a cold winter night. I was sleepy and fell to bed after watching another useless video in the internet.

As my eyes closed, i noticed that i was already moved inside a dream. This dream was different than many because i found myself back in a psychological horror game, which i thought might be great in VR games..

I was standing inside two dirty and old rooms. The walls were bold and empty until i turned around. Behind me was a wall with three words..

„Play“

„Settings“

„Go“

Besides these words i noticed many drawings and blood across the wall. Even a painting of a face which seemed to move when i looked at it. I asked myself if this was a horror game and i kind of liked the idea because i was bored anyway. I knew that i was sleeping in my bed a few moments ago but i wasnt sure to play the full game. Besides, i had already dreamed this sequence once and knew that i wasnt going to the end.

I didnt pressed around too much in the menu. The only thing i pressed was „Play“ and i didnt wanted the dream to end quickly because i knew, causing trouble inside a dream with small things, brought only shortage to it.

After pressing play, the menu dissapeared and i turned around to notice two beings standing right behind me. Both were lying on the ground. I think one was dead and the other one was an arm away from another, watching inside a black hole in the ground that wasnt there before. They had neither eyes nor face.. Just black figures which seemed tortured but i wasnt sure. The one near me, was turning his head rapidly to left and right without stopping. It was the one i thought who was dead.

I wasnt scared, rather it was annoying because the room seemed full. I walked to my left and saw a floor appearing in hologram colours. It surely was no surprise, after all i was playing a game.

I walked down the floor and knew that the upcoming room would become really dark but.. it wasnt fully dark, only half.

I stood still and looked across the room while i was standing still near the floor. There was it, another one of these being but this time, it was watching me and it had red glowing eyes and tooth. The tooth were spiky and it hands as well the legs, were spiky too. But it didnt moved, it only looked at me while rotating its head.

For a second i thought of my human reaction, to probably getting the hell scared and out of there, but i knew somehow that these beings would react on my level of fear. I knew it would come screaming at me if i would be scared because monsters work that way. They wait until you get scared, just to absorb your energy and grow in power, so you get even more scared and feed them more.

I just looked at it and thought „ah yes.. thats you“ and walked casually inside the room…

One meter ahead i stopped again, because i saw another one right behind it. But this one looked very humanly. I didnt knew that person but when i looked closer, i realised that it was eventually me. I couldnt believe it but the guy looked very similiar to me. And than i backed off, i knew i had to get out. But why ?

Well … after backing out, i realised i was awake and i wondered about that dream. A moment later, i found out that this dream was a part of a really old dream, a long time ago. In that dream, i was sitting on a couch exactly like the room what i was about to enter, right besides the floor. The room on the old dream was filled with daylight, while the floor was the dark area i wouldnt go in. I was sitting there and thinking on how to get through the dark floor. So i had made a small mannequin out of my energy which should look inside the floor but without moving inside. First it was a dog, but it was ugly and i feared it could be killed by the unknown inside the floor.

While i was making the mannequin and stood behind its back, i noticed a dark figure with a darkblue aura coming towards me from the floor, but it stopped before entering and went slowly back inside.. The dream ended with me and my figure looking inside the dark floor..

Die Frage der eigenen Fehler?

Hallo, heute soll es um die spirituelle Sicht der Frage gehen, welche sich viele in ihren Leben stellen. Unzwar lautet die Frage: „Was wäre, wenn ich damals einen anderen Weg gegangen wäre? Wäre ich jetzt reich oder dort wo ich sein wollte?“ und mit dieser Frage kommen meist Vorstellungen und Träume, wie etwas wohl gewesen…